My story
My story starts with and continues to have a lot of pain. As a child, I was as eccentric and intense as I am today. A funny antidote from my time in preschool was when I came up to the teacher very upset and called another girl my nemesis. I was ostracized and ridiculed by my peers in grades k-12.
I struggled to obtain and maintain friendship. I was overwhelmed by the never ending rotation of deadlines while school was in session. I tried to motivate myself yet remained unmotivated by seemingly simple tasks like completing a fractions worksheet. I frequently daydreamed of a life of fantasy. However, I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until I was an adult. It is still to this day incredibly hard to convince education professionals with budget sheets that someone can be intelligent, and have a diagnosed disability.
When I was age 15, I was sexually abused by an extended family member. While I finished getting my high school diploma I also met with a lawyer regularly and recited how his anatomy interacted with mine in front of a jury. “Another statistic of a little girl caught under a manipulative man's thumb” is a phrase from a poem I wrote back in high school. The world moves on rather quickly. Yet, trauma has a way of sticking with your mind and body, and keeping you stuck even while the earth moves on its axis.
Not aforementioned are the times I thought and even attempted taking my own life. Mental health challenges and mental illness are real and ever present in the world. If you or someone you know is struggling there is the 988 crisis text line available 24/7. Evermore, I continue to cling on to hope.
My therapist told me: it's an act of resiliency finding the beauty in everything. I still believe in the good at large. I am a college student, an education major, artist and an advocate. I am empowered by creativity balancing pain and beauty in my art and within my heart. Art offers us all meaning, and should not be taken for granted. The act of creating brings me to life, and will always be my greater calling. Here are the ways you can support me as an artist: follow me on social media @breathofagoddess on all platforms, hare my work and tag me! Or you can also commission me to create something beautiful for you or a loved one, as well as shop my art in print by going to https://www.bonfire.com/store/breathofagoddess-prints/
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